Progressing

In my memory, I used to be a child who love writing. Every time I got something in my mind, I would pick a paper and write it down; something it might be a short story, sometime it might be an incomplete composition. I once wrote a composition about rain, which picked out by my teacher and post it on the blackboard. This is me in primary school. When I went to secondary school, I was not allowed to write composition, but essay. Essay was new to me, I was enthusiastic about it in the early time. But my passion didn’t last long, the more I wrote, the more low grade I got. I wanted to find out the solution, but my time didn’t allow me to do. In China, it is impossible to spend the one or two day on another thing . Gradually, I lost my patience and confidence on essay. And this is the reason that I become a student who hate writing an essay.

Two year ago, when I first writing a short essay in English, that kill me. Because writing is one of my shortcomings, and I hate writing. But I got a nice grade on that essay, because I copied some sentences from the Internet and then used them as mine, like most lazy people do. I knew that this is not an appropriate way, and I did try to stop using this method. But I always use a sentence “you are not good at writing.” to convince myself. In other word, I was escaping.

As a result, I still challenged on writing when I was Grade twelve. And I got a AP English class this semester, which gave me a big surprise. English class is full of reading and writing under my impression, either the AP class. With this feeling, I walked into the classroom. My teacher is an old lady, the first impression she give me is that she is nice teacher. Instead of writing essay, she let us read a book in the beginning. In my opinion, I prefer to read a book rather than write a essay; what’s more, I haven’t read any novel after I came to America, reading an English novel is pretty fresh for me. So I began to read it, and took some note when I have some idea. Then, the midterm arrived. My teacher required us to write a essay about our feeling toward this novel. Most of my classmates show their interest in this assignment, but I  felt scare. However, my teacher said that she was welcome for bad essay. So I want to give myself a try. It spend me three day to write my first draft, and one day to got a lot of red circle and comment on my paper. As return, my English teacher spend much time on me. Although my essay is messy, but she kept telling me how to revive my essay, kept giving me suggestion on writing an essay. Her patience like a power that keep pushing me. Her words like the sun shows up in the dawn, everything become clear. So, I decided to act. The English teacher also encouraged us to give our comment on others’ essay, which gave me a chance to look at other people’s essay. And this time, I was not copying the content but the structure of the essay. With this action, I learn something on how to construct an essay.

We started a new book when we finished the first one. The same as the first, we were required to write an essay about our idea toward the book. This time, I did not write the essay immediately, but spend more time on the book. “read more, read deeply, then you can write better.” this is what I concluded from my teacher’s advices. I compare the essay to a tree, if the root can’t reach deeply in the soil, the tree is easily to fall down. If the content can’t explain the meaning of the novel, then the essay was wasted. I took out some points from the book and had a discussion with the my classmates. My classmates are glad to share their idea with me. Sometime, our teacher would join us and provide some advices for us. With these step, I know how to make my essay impressive.

The last essay I wrote, is about the third book I read. At this time, I found myself did not hate writing but show a little bit interest on it. When I am writing the essay, I felt like I am not working on a assignment, but a essay I want to write. Compare to before, I change a lot. Yet, my essay is still not perfect. However, I am not challenge on writing an essay anymore.