Who didn't you write to?

[…] I think if I really could I would—another—I would have loved to have written to my cats, who I-I discuss—I did mention in the letter, I told him how much I was looking forward to seeing .. my cats.

[…] Um, so I've always—I really—I have a very very deep relationship with my one cat, and my—and b-both my cats, I love them both, I mean, in-in different ways. Uh but my one cat is like—my soulmate. Which might seem strange. I met her on a rooftop, [ _______ ] like 10-12 years ago. And we just immediately like struck off um .. uh—we just yeah we hit it off with each other, and I just love—I love Rocket, like so much. And my-my criteria for a relationship would always be finding somebody who I was as happy or happier to wake up with than when I wake up with—when I wake up and my cats are next to me.

What does it feel like, for you when you miss someone, or something, or a place?

It's kind of.. that network between a neurological and a body feeling. I kind of feel it kind of in this channel of my .. my heart, my stomach, my head, my throat a little bit. You know when you start getting sick and your immune system starts going down there? I feel it a bit over there. Um, and in my eyes. Um … …. yeah, it's a longing. A yearning. Um .. wanting to physically .. yeah I mean you've got me thinking what missing is. … Such a thing of being aware of absence I suppose—but it's not quite that. It's .. when we miss people, I .. it's a kind of act of remembering in a way. A kind of melancholic remembering. … … yeah and a yearning, a longing, of course, but that's kind of … yeah, and I think .. I think in a way there's a kind of desire to be whole which may .. almost have nothing to do with the person who's being missed.

What do you mean by that?

I'm not sure it just came out of my mouth.